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NaNoWriMo Excerpts

November 18, 2008 · 1 Comment

Well, here’s a big fat whoopsie!!  Writer Dad just reminded me that I was going to post an excerpt from my novel (or lack of a novel) for NaNoWriMo.  I’m warning you this is just pure writing without editing, and it doesn’t necessarily fit together.  So, without further ado, here are two small excerpts from my ranting, oh, I mean writing.

 

…We simply stood that way, staring at each other in the twilight, the dust motes dancing, dancing, dancing.  I couldn’t move, I was paralyzed with intrigue.  My brain couldn’t fathom his beauty.  Suddenly the room was an inferno.  I could feel a single bead of persperation trickle down my spine.  I realized that the rasping sound I heard was my breath.  I abruptly held it, willing myself to calm. 

I blinked.  Blinking is a term I use lightly, for so much can happen in a blink… As my eyes unrolled from the back of my head and my lids lifted, he was there, a hands-breath away from me.  He smelled of musk with a hint of ginger.  He watched me intently, drinking in my entire being.  His gaze roved over me, searching for a hint of fear.  He found none.  I was however, alarmingly aroused.  Every sense was on overload.  I couldn’t form a single thought.  Suddenly, I found myself in his eyes, and I smiled.  He was dumbstruck, for one iota of one tenth of a second, then his features smoothed over as if the feeling never occured.  My smile broadened, a sensual pout with the corners upturned.  My instinct kicked in.  I molded myself to him and demanded a kiss with my lips.  He was stunned.  He stood like marble, unmoving.  He carefully extricated himself from my insistent embrace.  I held my breath to keep from panting.  It was quite unbecoming of me, I must admit…

 

…I couldn’t ignore her striking beauty.  If my lungs held breath I would have been holding it.  My fingers itched to tangle themselves in her curls.  All other thoughts ceased to exist but this: I must have her!  I could stop at nothing until I had her in my arms.  Her blood sang to me from across the crowded, stuffy gentle men’s club.  The voices around me became an incoherent hum.  I needed her.  I suddenly couldn’t imagine a world without her.  I carefully watched her exit the club with some young men, one I was assuming to be her father or her brother or her betrothed… But wait, I hadn’t recalled a ring on her finger, and the men were all too young to be her father.  No sooner had she left that I was shaken from my reverie by a glass shattering.  Before anyone could move, I looked up to see the serving girl terror stricken.  I realized I was baring my fangs.  I exited the common room in less than a blink of an eye.  Too late the men in the room looked to see why the glass broke, I was already gone.  What was wrong with me?!  I’d never bared my teeth in a public place.  Who could this insignificant creature be to inspire such folly on my part?  Taken aback, I took my leave in search of a meal.  I found my hapless victim in an alley, well beyond the bottom of his cups.  He went quietly in a drunken stupor as I drained him of his life.  I laughed to myself as I wandered the deserted streets drunk off a drunkards blood.  Probably some industrial worker who lost his job or his family or both.  I stumbled upon a whore, skirt hiked up, lewdly thrusting her hips and bosom at any drunken fool passing by.  She smiled coyly at me and caressed the lapels of my jacket.  Care for a good time? she inquired.  I laughed and told her my good time was to die for…

Well?  Tell me what you think!!!

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Calm Yourself Iago

November 18, 2008 · Leave a Comment

Remember Aladdin?  Iago the parrot was my favorite.  Anyways…

Are you stressed? I’m stressed.  Let’s breathe togther, shall we?

I’m pretty stressed and I was going through my pictures for some reason or another, and I came across my favorite calming pictures I’ve taken.

*sigh* That’s better, isn’t it?  Go drink a cup of tea, and lay off the coffee.  I hate coffee.  =)

By the way, those were all taken at my house over the summer.  (Except for the pics of water, that is Lake Michigan.)  It definately doesn’t look like that around here now.

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And There I Go With The F Bomb Again…

November 18, 2008 · Leave a Comment

I AM

an asshole.  I’m constantly fighting with myself, and constantly losing.  That’s what makes me an asshole.  I let that fucking meanie head that doesn’t want to do anything win.

 

She’s a bitch, and she pisses me off, but I let her win because it’s easier than fighting harder and actually making myself do things.  Here in  my little world we procrastinate, and don’t give a shit about it.  I’m sick of it. 

 

I have a research paper due tomorrow, and I started it yesterday.  *sheepish grin* I admit that I work better under pressure, but COME ON!  That’s a little extreme, don’t you think?  The paper has to be at least 2500 words, or 5-10 PAGES.  You know what my effin topic is?  E-commerce and it’s effect on eBay.  For Fuck’s sake, what’s wrong with me?  All the other topics we had to chose from were just as engaging.  *rolls eyes*  Maybe I thought since there would be no eBay without e-commerce, it would be easy, right?  Well that’s the friggin problem, it’s too easy.  You state that there would be no eBay, and every says yeah, so what? And then you’re done. 

 

I’ve been pretty sick the past few days, thank you Joe, remind me to give you a frickin cookie next time I see you. 

I mean I knew it was fairly inevitable, he comes home from California and naturally we can’t keep our hands off each other and when he comes down with a cold, I just wait patiently for it to slap me in the face too.  It didn’t hit me nearly as hard as it hit him, and I’m grateful.  I was kind of hoping that since it took so long to get me, maybe I wasn’t going to get it at all… Yeah right, and I’m the merry queen of England. 

 

I’m pretty upset about NaNoWriMo.  I’m totally lost, especially since I’m trying to juggle the damn paper, my impending final exams that I will fail since I haven’t read a fucking word past chapter 2 in either of the books, and the fact that I have no money and barely work 15 hours a week.  My stress level is so high that my brain decided not to acknowledge anything that is going to stress me out on more than an observational level.  It’s like I’m outside of it all going Ha! you’re fucked.

 

Why is there a camera in my face?!

Why is there a camera in my face?!

Okay, so I just got totally distracted by my african gray parrot Neo making really cute noises…. I’m glad I’m easily amused/distracted.  It’s kind of a sing-song

“doo doo doo, hoo hoo hooooo…”

 

 

I’m kinda bummed that I can’t play with Neo more, but I’m sick and I don’t know if this is something he can get from me or not.  He’s super cute and he absolutely adores me… Well, until I try to get him to do something he doesn’t want to do, then he is all temperamental and wants to bite.  But then I tell him not to give me his attitude and he lifts his wings above his head and flexes them three times.  It’s his little way of saying I’m tough, don’t mess with me!  I then proceed to shake my fist at him.  And he makes this little sound pushing air out of his beak like he’s offended.

 

Yeah, so my dad calls the propane company to make some change to how we’re billed, and he ends up talking to the lady for almost half an hour.  He’s just gabbing away like a lonely house wife or something.  It makes me feel kind of bad, but he kind of deserves it.  He’s been really mean to a lot of people for a really long time, and I think this is the world’s way of saying, you’ve been bad, now it’s time to have some quiet in the corner by yourself.  He talks my mom’s ear off when she gets home from work, and it pisses her off, because she spends all day answering phone calls.  She just wants to be left alone, and he just wants someone to talk to.  I’m here some days, but we have very brief conversations.  Even on long car rides our conversations don’t last for more than five minutes at a time, then we’ll be silent for a half hour or so.  *shrugs*

 

Okay, I’m going to go work on that research paper some more… At least, that’s what I’m telling myself. 

 

 

 

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