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Tim does an Ask The Coach question about once a week, and I was fortunate enough for him to pick mine this week. I put my neck on the block and talked about my petty jealousy of my boyfriend’s good fortune.
I am very proud of my man and his hard work, but jealousy is like an angry little kid and will not be ignored. She pouts and cries about our lack of funding for everything, stomps her feet about the lack of hours to work, and screams, pounding her fists about the fact that we’re stuck doing a job that will not pay us well ever, and the fact that we can’t find something to supplement or replace said job.
That being said, I ignore her as best as possible and try to look towards the future, and hope that I can find something else, and remind her that we’ve been stuck on pause because we were carrying a baby, and no one is going to hire a very pregnant woman. For now I’m stuck at home hoping to feel better and counting all the hours I’m missing at work. I revamped my resume, but my work experience almost doesn’t seem worth a resume. I have skills, there is just no “evidence” to back them up, and anyone looking at my resume wouldn’t think much of me, I’m afraid. I’ve customer service experience, money handling experience, and plenty of Microsoft Office Suite under my belt, but it’s all unimpressive jobs for indeterminate periods of time and my degree is far from finished as a Database Specialist. In fact, I only have two classes this semester because I wasn’t able to obtain my scholarship in time and had to pay out of pocket.
I’m sorry if I’m coming off as whiny, but I’m just putting into words whats going on in my head.
Donna purchased a three month membership for me at a gym, and as soon as I have the green light I want to start exercising. I’m going to cut down on the fast food. I will try harder to find a new job, and pay off my debt. I’m trying to consciously stop myself from thinking negative things, but sometimes it just pops into my head. I’m a touch self destructive, so that makes it doubly hard for me to think positive when my sub conscious has treacherous plans.
